It’s true when they say that in the most difficult times in life, you find out who your true friends are. I always knew what I had for friends but seeing it in action overwhelmed me. The experience was life changing. As humbling as it was to have so many people doing so much for me, it was an experience that I thank God every day for allowing me to experience it. I look at this entire ordeal that way. If I didn’t have to go through the horrible experience of Cancer, maybe I never really would have known what I now know. It may sound crazy but I felt blessed to have gone through it, let alone survive it.
The first week into treatment, I had learned that my friends were putting together a benefit for me. They called it, “The Bill E. Ramage Benefit.” When I first heard of the Benefit, I got emotional. Immediately. I flat-out cried, sitting at my monitor as I saw it on Facebook. It was quite the honor to see that my friends thought so much of me to help me out like this. Then as I sat there at my computer, I saw the friends list to the benefit grow right before my eyes. It grew and it grew, just as I sat there watching.
Every person that joined, I knew. With every friend that added themselves to that list, another tear ran down my face. I look for words to describe that feeling but there are none. The only thing I can tell you about it is that my heart swelled so big, that it leaked out my eyes.
They had planned the Benefit for the week after my treatment had ended so at this early stage of treatment, it seemed like it was years away from happening. Seven weeks of treatment, every single day made me feel like it was never going to end, having to endure the mask, chemo and the burning that I knew was going to eventually come from radiation.
As hard as it was to accept, I learned to quit worrying about the benefit and all the work everyone was doing on it. It was their way of getting through it with me and I really did appreciate it immensely. All I could worry about now was doing what had to be done to rid my body of this tumor in my throat and get myself back on the job in good physical condition. I couldn’t wait for treatment to end so I could start working out again.
This was the start of the individual human experience. Learning of the Benefit was my introduction to the collective human experience. At this time, humans were starting to become Angels. The earth Angels were showing up in droves. In my years of searching for my spirituality, the more I had learned, the more teachers fell out of trees, so to speak. This is what was happening with the people in my life. Whether these friends of mine believe it or not, they were in fact Angels in their own right.